First step: Commitment

To take a journey you have to commit to it.  It’s that simple.

Right?

I started this post wanting to talk about commitment and it’s importance on the journey, as the foundation of the journey.  But I found myself going on about my decision to move to Los Angeles and what I’ve learned from that.  Eventually I worked myself all the way back to commitment.  Via know what you want.  First you have to know what you want, and then you have to commit to it.  Next you get clear and get into action.  And as action moves you, you adjust.  In other words, ready, fire, aim.  (Which describes exactly how I am writing this post.)

I’ve decided to spend some more time on the post I’ve got going about the lessons I’ve learned from deciding to move to LA and then just doing it.  I have a lot to say there and I’d like to flesh certain parts out a bit more.  So, I’m sticking with the concept of commitment for this post.  I have wrestled with the concept of commitment in my life for some time.  To the point of wondering if I had it in me to really commit to anything.  I can give you my past pains and excuses I’ve used for keeping myself some what removed from people and life.  And I may.   When I find those stories to be helpful to some point I am trying to make.

And speaking of making points…  I got distracted writing about my move to Los Angeles because it represents such a big commitment for me.  And such a large departure from my past actions.  This blog represents me repeating that commitment.  Reaffirming it.  Adding an additional layer of accountability to it.

Moving was huge for me and important.  But the mere fact of moving was only a small step on my journey.  I have committed myself to the goal of being an A list actress and having my pick of screen plays.  (I’ll share a nicely formed, fully qualified, SMARTER, ACTEDR, etc, etc, goal soon, but that covers the gist of if.) This goal requires a lot more than simply living in LA.  And as I’ve begun to explore the resources available for developing myself as an actress I find myself and delighted and surprised by the magnitude of the journey before me.

I know myself, how badly I want this and many if not all of the patterns and habits I have held myself back with.  I understand the importance of rituals and accountability to support yourself.  And I know that this is a journey that many people undertake (and many more want to try).  My goals here are to establish a ritual of writing about my journey to help others and a create place where I will be held accountable.  I am committing to publish here Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays.  I am committing to share my journey to become a working actress.  I am committing to creating community and inspiring others to follow their dreams, whatever they may be.  I am committing to letting go of the voice that keeps second guessing every thing I write and accepting that what I write will not speak to everyone and that this blog itself will grow and improve with time (but that won’t happen unless I actually write it).

This is the first step, commitment.